Today I am sad.
While trying to make a doctor’s appointment for my eldest, G, who was stung by something nasty on the soccer field yesterday and is dealing with a very swollen hand, I received news that a dear family friend had passed away.
It wasn’t unexpected. It’s almost a blessing because he is no longer suffering. But it is still difficult to hear and deal with.
He was one of the kindest, good hearted (is that even a word) men I’ve had in my life.
That, along with G and her swollen hand, are on my mind today, making it difficult for me to be productive at work.
It would be easier if the things I were trying to accomplish would actually work the right way for me.
But, alas, they won’t.
So, I will continue with my difficult day and hug my girls when I get home tonight.
Do you ever feel like you are losing you mind?
Feel so disorganized that you may never regain control?
Yeah…me to….so if you were looking for me to help you out….I can’t. I just need to kvetch about it.
I work part time outside of the house and like any other mom, full time inside the house. I love my job and my family….but things aren’t going very smoothly lately and I have to figure out how to change that.
There are piles of clean and dirty everywhere.
There are fall decorations that need to be organized and dealt with.
Papers are overflowing my countertops.
Dust elephants are growing at exponential rates due to the massive German Shepard that resides with us.
I dust, blink, turn around and need to dust again.
I just feel like I am loosing control.
Weekends are full of soccer…….really nothing else.
I really need/want to start meal planning and I haven’t found the time to search for meals to make let alone gather the ingredients needed to pre-prepare the meals.
I know I’m not alone in this and in many cases I probably have it easy. My husband works from home and can help out. My girls are not overly scheduled.
I just can’t seem to pull my sh!t together.
How do you all do it?
Well, not in life, but on this blog.
I started this blog almost a year ago and it has gone no where so I’m going to try to start over.
Let me Re-Re Introduce myself.
My name is Kristen. I live in New Jersey, outside of Trenton. I have two beautiful girls…G is almost 10 and A is almost 8. They give me a run for my money almost every day (which leaves me to wonder why I’m not thinner than I am).
I have been married for 16 years to a great man and a great father.
We have one guinea pig, one dog and some fish.
I work part time outside of the house. I love my job. It’s just enough to keep my mind going and bring in some money but not too much to make me lose my mind.
I love to read. I love to make quilts. I wish I could sew clothes. I love photography. I hate to cook. My house is presentable…just don’t look too close.
What will this blog be about? I’m not really sure yet. I love to DIY things….so maybe part that. I have some projects in mind for the house.
Maybe some of my sewing.
Maybe clothes, makeup…..
Not really sure….
I hope you will join me as I try to get this off the ground again.
Thanks for stopping by.
I’m sorry to whine but I’m in a funk. If you saw my last post about my mom and the dog…I’ve been under a lot of stress lately. Combine that with PMS……I’m just ick today.
I am the heaviest I’ve ever been and while I’m not obese….I am not comfortable or happy in my current weight.
I’m feeling old and frumpy, like I don’t know where I belong on the fashion scale. Does that make sense? Everywhere I turn everything is skinny skinny skinny.
My hair is just a mess and I have no idea what to do with it. I don’t like spending time on it but I just have no clue. I can’t afford an uber fancy hair salon so I must rely on the talent of my current stylist and her basement.
Does anyone else ever feel like this or am I all alone in how I feel?
If you do…how do you make yourself feel better?
Again, I haven’t been around in a while but I have a good explanation.
About three weeks ago Friday my mom called me in the middle of the night to take her to the emergency room because she thought she had appendicitis. To make a long story short, she didn’t have appendicitis, although they did perform an appendectomy. She had a kink or twist in her small intestine and part of her small intestine was stuck to her large intestine. So she ended up with major abdominal surgery.
A week after her surgery she came home to stay with us and went home by herself today.
I’ve either been at the hospital or at home with her and needless to say….I’m exhausted…mentally, physically, and emotionally.
On top of all that, our dog was hit by a car the same night my mom had the surgery. To be honest, Bruder hit the car but still…that required a trip to the doggie ER…..
I will try to post more regularly soon.
In the mean time, I need a vacation.
I really didn’t mean for it to take so long between setting up a new blog and actually posting on it.
Since the girls have gone back to school I’ve been busy with several things.
First, I painted the deck with Behr’s DeckOver Paint. My deck is HUGE…..like 450 sq. feet so it took me some time to get the required 2 coats on it. I still need to do the benches and get everything back on the deck but I really do like the way it came out. I promise I will post some pictures soon.
Second, my in-laws moved from South Carolina closer to our family in PA and I have been going out at least once a week to help them unpack and organize and decorate their new place. They went from a 2900 square foot home to an 1100 square foot apartment and it hasn’t been easy for them.
Third, the dog……the dog ate his bed and got very sick. Like almost surgery sick. Then he ate 3/4 of a huge raw hide……..and got sick again….ugh, this dog.
Currently, I have several projects going on around the house (on top of all the normal stuff ie laundry, dishes, cooking, cleaning that need to get down).
Hopefully I can share those with you soon.
Finally, I’m looking for a job. UGH, the dreaded J word. I don’t really want to work but I suppose I actually have to at this point.
I will try to post again tomorrow. I’d really like this to become a “real” blog, like some of my favorites.
I’m Kristen and I’m starting a new blog. I used to write Ramblings of a Stressed out Mom but…I’m trying to change that.
I would like to blog about my life, my photography, my kids, my DIY, my sewing…none of which I do perfectly but which I try to enjoy doing.
As of now, I’m just trying to set up this site as my girls watch Princess Diaries 2.
Wait for more to come.